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No Room
Last night I saw a video of a woman who died when she went over a waterfall kayaking. She said at that moment she was given a choice to follow God or not. She chose to accept God’s will no matter the outcome. Her experience of life after death was fascinating and heart wrenching at […]
Stay With Me
I have been listening to a podcast based on a retreat by St. Ignatius. This morning I listened to a meditation based on the beginning of the Passion of Christ. The scripture passage Matthew 26:36-46 was the account of Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane. Jesus asked his apostles to stay awake while he prayed, […]
Knew My Struggles
It’s been a rough week. Yesterday I met with a counselor who has been helping me work through my challenges of caregiving and grieving. As I thought about my dad and as I do my best to care for my mom, there are many ways that I wish I could do better – be a […]
Many Reminders
As I was driving to an appointment this morning, I saw the moon setting behind the mountain. It was such a beautiful scene that was almost identical to what I saw 2 years ago when my dad entered Hospice Care in the hospital. The first morning I went to see him, I opened the blinds […]
Many Talents
This morning my mom’s regular CNA was out, so another girl came in. She was wonderful, as they all are. She said she used to be a Hospice nurse for many years, but it started to be too difficult for her as she would form such close relationships with the patients, then lose them. She […]
Two Years
Today was the two year anniversary of my father’s death. I had been anticipating this day for several weeks now and wondering what it would be like for my mom. I set up to have my dad prayed for at the parish Mass this afternoon. While mom doesn’t always remember that my dad died, she […]
Shampoo Adventure
My mom has been too unsteady to get into the shower, plus it is uncomfortable for her and she gets freezing cold. Thankfully, the Hospice CNA comes once a week and gets her all washed up. However, when I was sitting with mom this afternoon, I realized how badly she needed her hair washed. I […]
Be Still
Psalm 46:11 “Be still and know that I am God.” This verse has been very meaningful to me for many years. Tonight was particularly challenging and I remembered this Psalm. It was a reminder that He is God, that I am not, and that He has everything under control for our good. I Found God […]
Painting Party
We celebrated my sister’s birthday today with a virtual painting party. Some family came over and other friends and family joined via Zoom. Everyone had a canvas, brushes, and a lots of different colored paints. The instructor on Zoom guided us through how to paint the picture, which was an abstract water and mountain scene […]
Grateful Response
I listened to a meditation today based on Matthew 26:6-10. It was about a woman who anointed Jesus with expensive oil while he was at dinner with several apostles and others. The meditation describes the woman as someone filled with gratitude and love for Jesus. It was suggested that her life was changed by Jesus, […]
Still Finding God 