Struggles
Carrying Her Cross
This morning my mom wasn’t feeling very well at all. She surprised me by saying she felt like she was carrying her cross. I agreed. We talked about how everyone has their cross to carry as they make their way home to God. When I got in the car to go to church, I heard […]
Don’t Beat Yourself Up
Due to our lack of sleep, we decided to hire overnight caregivers. The first one came a couple nights ago. At the same time, we discovered that my mom was in tremendous pain. We did everything we knew to do, but it didn’t seem to make any difference. I called the Hospice company who sent […]
A Break
I have been getting very little sleep lately and had pretty much hit the proverbially wall. Today I was grateful that my sister cared for my mom all day so I could have a break. I tried to nap, but slept less than I would have liked. I’m hoping sleep will come tonight. I Found […]
Utmost Patience
My mom was somewhat agitated today which ramped up in the afternoon as usual. However, she was more unsettled than normal. She was up and down and in and out of bed instead of napping. She was so tired, but would only lay down for a couple minutes before getting up. Luckily, one of our […]
About Suffering
I have been listening to a couple different series on the Hallow app. This morning I was focused on Mary, the Mother of Jesus. I thought about her willingness to follow God and trust Him with her life. Even so, it didn’t keep her from suffering. The worst was when she had to stand by […]
Lending an Ear
I felt relieved to get through my stack of paperwork today. It was helpful to have one of our trustworthy caregivers here to help watch over my mom. To finish up, I needed to go to the bank. The teller was super nice and saw I was the POA on my mom’s account. She asked […]
Reminded of God’s Love
I met with my Stephen Minister this evening. She listens to whatever I have to say, is non-judgmental, and helps me to see things from a different perspective. What I appreciate the most is the ability to talk about faith. Whether I feel like I’m in a good place, frustrated, hopeful, peaceful, anxious, or even […]
Patiently Occupied
Last night I took my turn to “sleep” in mom’s room with her. She has been having bathroom problems which makes it even more challenging. I won’t get into details, but in the middle of the night I stripped her bed, washed her bedding, and gave her a shower. At the beginning of all the […]
Heartfelt Hug
This afternoon one of our wonderful caregivers was here. She was sitting with my mom at the table doing a puzzle. Typically my mom seems to take a nosedive in the afternoon. Perhaps “sundowning”. She gets more agitated and emotional for no apparent reason. As they were working on the puzzle and chatting, my mom […]
Huge Relief
Another new caregiver has been here a couple weeks. The other day she said thought my mom had Cdif and told us all the hygiene protocols we should be following and that mom should be quarantined. My mom has had some troubles, but I had been talking with our nurses about it. Everything the caregiver […]
Still Finding God 