We had a particularly rough night with my mom last night. Both my sister and I were up with her for 2 hours as she was frightened, angry, and very confused. We tried all the distractions and redirecting that we could think of with very little effect. Finally after an additional dose of sleep medication we all were able to go back to bed. With the lack of sleep and emotional distress, we were beyond exhausted today. When my mother laid down to take a nap, I tried to rest as well. I put on the Surrender Novena to day 6 which is where I thought I might be in the rotation. This is what it said,

Jesus says, “You are sleepless; you want to judge everything and see to everything and you surrender to human strength, or worse – to men themselves, trusting in their intervention – this is what hinders my words and my views. Oh, how much I wish from you this surrender, to help you; and how I suffer when I see you so agitated. Satan tries to do exactly this: to agitate you and to remove you from my protection and to throw you into the jaws of human initiative. So trust only in me, rest in me, surrender to me in everything.”

As I was thinking about last night, I realized that the only time I asked for God’s intervention was when we finally got my mom back into bed. I resolved to remember to go to Him first thing. I have also been working on getting a caregiver to come in a couple of afternoons during the week. A woman was supposed to start today. However, she did not show up. The representative from the company did come and apologize profusely and said they were going to continue looking for the perfect fit. I was very disappointed and frustrated by this. Then I remembered the Surrender Novena and Jesus’ words today. I’m not sure where this will all lead, but I will try my best to surrender the whole situation to Him, knowing and trusting that He holds us close and has everything under control.

I Found God today in the Surrender Novena.