Patience
Remembering Time With Mom
Today as I was going through things on my computer, I came across a video that I made with my mom several years ago. A flood of emotions rushed over, into, and out of me. First, I was sad and missed her tremendously. As I watched, I realized how much she suffered and for such […]
Utmost Patience
My mom was somewhat agitated today which ramped up in the afternoon as usual. However, she was more unsettled than normal. She was up and down and in and out of bed instead of napping. She was so tired, but would only lay down for a couple minutes before getting up. Luckily, one of our […]
Patiently Occupied
Last night I took my turn to “sleep” in mom’s room with her. She has been having bathroom problems which makes it even more challenging. I won’t get into details, but in the middle of the night I stripped her bed, washed her bedding, and gave her a shower. At the beginning of all the […]
Supportive Nurses
This morning our Hospice nurse came for her weekly visit. We discussed the events of the past week. She was so understanding, gracious, validating, and supportive. She never made me feel inadequate or irresponsible. The CNA also came towards the end of our visit and gave Mom a shower. She was also very caring and supportive. […]
Good Conversation
It is difficult to see my mom struggling with anxiety more often now. Most of the cause is that she realizes she isn’t getting any better and is feeling that someone somewhere should be able to do something. Her nurse came today and they had a really good conversation. My mom typically will not talk […]
Precious Cargo
It felt wonderful to take a walk in the sunshine today. As I went through a parking lot, I heard an exchange between a man and a woman who were parked side by side. The woman was getting a toddler out of her car. The man was waiting for her so he could get into […]
Timing is Everything
I feel like I’m always needing to work on trusting God more. Today, a friend shared a prayer by TobyMac that I tried to keep in my heart, “I trust what you are doing, how you are doing it, and the time in which you will do it.” This is a reminder to me that […]
Perspective Lifter
The meditation for today in “Jesus Calling” was very interesting. The first sentence was, “Welcome problems as perspective-lifters.” The idea was that we so easily and happily live in the mundane and hum-drum of every day life, but we are made for more. As much as we balk at “problems” or anything that challenges our […]
Brother’s Blessing
It’s always such a blessing to have my brother here for a visit. This morning after breakfast, he and my mom were talking about road trips. My mom used to journal during her trips with my dad. She asked my brother to get out her books so they could look through them together. He got […]
Couple Appointments
I had a couple of appointments today and tentatively left the house when our friend came to stay with my mom. As I’m still recovering, I have learned that if I move very slowly, I am able to do things. If I try to rush or push too much, I will end up hitting a […]
Still Finding God 