Struggles
Setting My Mind Aright
I have been replaying the events of the last few weeks over and over in my head. I wonder if I could have and/or should have done something different to affect the outcome. I try to remember that I did the best I could and that God is God and I am not. Today I […]
The Great Exodus
The day after my dad’s funeral was the great exodus. I was grateful that my out of town family had stayed for 3 weeks, but it was time for everyone to make their way back home – except for one. I asked my brother if he would stay a few more days so we wouldn’t […]
Spiritual Perspective
My dad had been declining since his big fall on Friday. He ended up back in the ER yesterday. This afternoon I had a conversation with the doctor about decisions that will need to be made regarding his care once we see if or how much he may recover. After our talk I had to […]
Positive Resolutions
My mom and I made it up to see my dad this afternoon. He looked pitiful but got in a chuckle or a smile every now and again. I spoke with the director, caregivers, and his PCP. I was surprised to learn that by law the doors to the courtyards must remain unlocked at all […]
Another Painful Experience
It’s been a rough couple of days. On Friday afternoon, I was able to finally get my COVID booster. Planning ahead, my sister was coming to stay with my mom and I for the weekend. It had just started to snow when she left for her normal 1 1/2 hour drive. Just as my mom […]
Better
I have been dragging the last couple of days – physically, mentally, energetically. Perhaps it’s coming off the holidays. Perhaps I’ve been neglecting to do what I need to take care of myself. I suppose that’s why it seems necessary to make a new year’s resolution. In any case, I resolved to get my diet […]
Overwhelmed
I can all too often find myself feeling overwhelmed. Such was the case earlier today. I thought I was starting the year off on a good path, when a phone call and conversation set me off. When I realized where my emotions were heading, first thing I did was walk away and take a time […]
New Year’s Prayer
A friend shared a prayer for the new year that I thought was fitting and beautiful: Thank you God for giving me. The brand new year ahead. Help me live the way I should. As each new day I tread. Give me gentle wisdom. That I might help a friend. Give me strength and courage. […]
Temporary Emotions
I often struggle in trying to keep my emotions in check. I can be very quick to react based on how I’m feeling. Then I usually regret it and have to apologize. Tonight I read a beautiful reflection from “The Word Among Us”, based on today’s gospel. It said in part, “Emotions are temporary, but […]
Welcoming Party
Every time I visit my dad in his memory care community, I learn a little more about compassion. As my mom and I were leaving today, there were a group of four women together – two in wheelchairs and two sitting with walkers. I recognized three of them, but one I had not seen before. […]
Still Finding God 