I realized this morning that I was lacking in my silent prayer time the past couple of days. It makes a huge difference in my day when I spend some time in the morning talking and listening to God. So I re-committed (again). I told God that I really want to do what He wants me to do, but it is so hard and I don’t know why. I was reminded of the scripture Romans 7:19
“For I do not do the good I want, but I do the evil I do not want.”  I finished my prayer time and went out to run some errands later in the day. I was near the street of the church and realized that there is Eucharistic Adoration on Thursdays. I felt God’s tug on my heart, remembered that I am trying to do what He wants, and swung by the church. I decided that I would not keep track of time – that I would just go before Him and stay until I felt I was finished. I knelt in front of the Eucharist and closed my eyes. I tried not to let my thoughts wander and at the same time not form any prayers or words. I just wanted to allow God to do His work in me. After a while, I felt as if all my worries and concerns were being extracted and brought directly to God where they dissipated. As this happened, I thought of all the people I want to pray for. I felt that they, too, were brought directly to God who will care for them in His way. When this all kind of wound down, I felt very much at peace. I sat a while longer just enjoying the serenity before I made my way out of the church. I was ready to continue my day and so grateful for God’s promptings and that I listened and responded. Oh – the scripture ends like this:

Romans 7:21-25 “So, then, I discover the principle that when I want to do right, evil is at hand. For I take delight in the law of God, in my inner self, l but I see in my members another principle at war with the law of my mind, taking me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. Miserable one that I am! Who will deliver me from this mortal body?
Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord.”

I Found God today in Eucharistic Adoration and a reminder that without God, I cannot do the good I want.