I have been enjoying listening to the Lenten reflections on the Hallow app. It is based on the book He Leadeth Me by Fr. Walter Ciszek. He was a priest during the cold war and desired to minister to the people in Russia. When he was younger he would push himself to his physical and mental limits. This served him well when he was arrested and placed in solitary confinement in the most feared prison in Russia. However, even with all his preparation, strength, discipline, and faith, he eventually broke and signed a confession to false charges. This left him at his lowest point and he questioned himself and God. But, then he began to see things in a different light. He realized that all the trials that led up to that point were in fact moments of great grace. He understood that he had still been relying on himself instead of fully relying on God. He said, “… that moment of failure was in itself  a moment of great grace, for it had taught me a great lesson. Severe as the test had been, God had sustained me and was now instructing me by the light of his grace.” I look forward to hearing what happens next.

I Found God today in a stark reminder of the necessity to fully rely on God.