When I started thinking about decorating the house for Christmas, I knew I didn’t want to display the same artificial tree that I have put up for the past 10 years. My parents enjoyed it as it was pre-lit and rotated so you could admire all the decorations. I enjoyed it too for several years. But, as time went on, it got harder and harder to put together and the lights started going out. So, I knew I didn’t want to get it out again. At the same time, I didn’t really know what I wanted to do about a tree. Perhaps not get one at all since I knew I was going to be the only one in the house for Christmas. My sister had made plans to go visit her son and no one was going to come here for the holiday. I wasn’t sure I was even in a good frame of mind to do any decorating. Then, when my brother was here for Thanksgiving, we went to the racetrack to see the Christmas light display. As part of the entrance ticket, he bought me a fun light up wand. I knew right away that it needed to be a topper for a small Christmas tree. Today I bought a little table top tree that had a lovely long, sturdy top. My sister and I adorned it with lights, ribbon, and sparkly garland. Then I attached the light up wand. I added a couple of my favorite ornaments to finish it off. It was perfect. It was different. I cried. It was hard to be joyful and sad at the same time.

I Found God today just experiencing emotions.