Coming to the end of the year gave me good reason to reflect back and look forward as perhaps many people do. I have seen several suggestions and ideas of how to do this. It is helpful to me to process through and write things down. I’m going to try to make it simple – not being harsh on myself and being as realistic as possible.
Gratitude is particularly helpful to keep a positive mindset and energy. I am grateful for my parents who taught me so much in life and in death, for loving people who cared for my mom, for the support of staff at the local aging center, for the gift of faith, for good friends who have always been present near and far, for my son getting engaged to the love of his life, for spending more time with and rekindling relationships with my sons, daughter in law, and grandchildren, for still having weekly Zooms with my siblings as we do our best to love each other through difficult years, for the wonderful community I live in, for people who reach out, for rest, for the beauty and breath of nature, for my own physical body and the capabilities it has.
I also do not want to stay stuck in old ways that are not good for me and those around me. It is difficult. The first thing I need to do is be aware when I am doing or saying something that is less than loving to myself or someone else. Then, correct it ASAP.
As I wait for the Lord to help me know what the next phase of my life will look like, friends, family, and others have helped me to think about what I would like to do more of: spend time with friends, visit far away family and friends, read, listen to music, do crafts, walk, play the piano, take photographs, talk less and listen more, go on a retreat.
I think this post is one that I should come back to over and over again. Especially when I’m feeling sad, lonely, or depressed. I can be reminded of the multiple blessings I have and perhaps get energy to do the next thing. I was reminded today of one of my favorite scriptures as I continue to do my best to trust God with my life.
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
I Found God today grateful for His blessings and looking forward to His plan for my life.