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Meaningful Discoveries

A while ago, I put together a notebook with some pens and pencils and put them on the table in my dad’s room. The hope was that he would write down some thoughts or note. After a week or so, I wrote a small I Love You message on the first page of the still empty notebook. When we were visiting my dad today, one of his therapists asked if we saw the note she had written. We had not actually been in his room yet. When I went in, I read the note:
“Today your dad stood for 10 minutes in the bathroom where he independently, without my help, washed his face and hands and shaved with his electric razor. Then we walked for 12 minutes without a break right after. I was so proud and wanted to share. I also had him drink a water bottle from the fridge. He seems to prefer it room temperature.”
She was right, my dad is always cold and doesn’t like the cold water right out of the fridge. It meant so much to me that she would take the time to write the note to bring us some joy and made an observation about the cold water. We also found on his table a bulletin from the local Catholic Church. I had reached out to them to see if they had someone who would be able to bring my dad Holy Communion. The bulletin was the tell-tale sign that someone had been there. I was so happy for that as well.

I Found God today in meaningful discoveries.

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Love God, Love Your Neighbor

The Mass readings for today included Deuteronomy 6:2-6 and Mark 12:28-34. In the first reading, Moses gave the law to Israel to “…love the LORD, your God, with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength.” In the Gospel, Jesus expanded on this by adding, “You shall love your neighbor as yourself.” In the homily, the priest suggested the image of the cross to explain this way of life. He said the vertical beam of the cross reminds us to look up and love God. One way to help us love God is to meditate on the beauty of nature. God made all things on this earth for our enjoyment. Looking at the mountains each day brings me a lot of joy, so I can remember to thank God for them. The horizontal beam of the cross is our reminder to spread the love we have for God and the love He has for us. If we can grow in love for God and realize all He has created, we could see His Presence in every human being. Then, we can love each person, our neighbor. We can love God who we cannot see through His creation that we can see. But, it takes time and perseverance. So, tomorrow when I look at those mountains, I will thank God for them and for loving me. Then I will try to think about the other wonderful things and people that God has put in my life and thank Him for them. I also need to ask for His help and grace to act in a loving way to those around me and beyond. Yes, I can see that this will take time and perseverance. But, hopefully I will progress as time goes on.

I Found God today in a plan of action to help love God and others more.

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Cabin Times

We decided to close up the cabin for the winter this year to save some money. My brother got the guy from the water company to come blow out the pipes to make sure nothing freezes. Today my sister and I went for a drive and stopped up there. We took care of a couple additional things and brought back any food that would not last for an extended period of time. We thought about and talked about the last time my parents enjoyed their time up there. My sister found a photo of us there last summer. It was obvious on my dad’s face that he wasn’t comfortable. The dementia was stealing him away and after that trip he became more and more confused about where he was. It was sad. But we also talked about and remembered so many happy times up there. I am grateful for those times. And I’m grateful I was able to get my parents up there to enjoy as much time as was possible.

I Found God today remembering and being grateful for good times with my parents at the cabin.

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Holloweeny Day

This morning my mom, brother, and I went to visit my dad. There were several employees wearing costumes for Halloween. The executive director was dressed as the ringmaster. He said, “Someone has to be the leader of this circus!” It was pretty funny. After our visit, we went to one of our favorite scenic parks to enjoy a picnic lunch in the beautiful weather. We saw some hikers and a woman had on her Halloween attire. My daughter in law told us that her daughter’s school was going to have a parade of all the costumed kids just before dismissal. We made it home just in time for my mom and I to walk over to the school. My mom sat in her walker close to the sidewalk. The first group that came around was my granddaughter’s class. She was dressed as a “Charming Wolf”. Of course, she was adorable. Because of the location of our housing complex, we don’t get any trick-or-treaters, so my mom especially loved seeing all the kids in their costumes. It was quite an enjoyable day.

I Found God today in a happy day.

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Visiting Again

Last night I met with my prayer group online. It was wonderful to pray and visit. I got our family friend scheduled to spend a couple hours with my mom, so today I met a friend for a hike and a talk. It was a beautiful day for it. I feel like I’m starting to come out of the fog of chaos and difficulties that have been all consuming during the past few months. I am grateful for support and friends that I can reconnect with.

I Found God today touching base with friends.

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Good Conversation

I talked with a far away friend today. Actually talked on the phone. There is nothing like hearing a friend’s voice and having a conversation, especially when it has been a long time. We caught up on kids and parents and struggles. We discussed the importance of treating the whole person – body, mind, and soul – and how that seems to be lost at this point in time. We were certain that we solved all the world’s problems during that time. It did my heart good to talk with her.

I Found God today having a conversation with a friend.

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God Cares Through Suffering

This morning I read the scripture for today and the words from Romans 8:18 hit my heart.
I consider that the sufferings of this present time are as nothing compared with the glory to be revealed for us.
I thought these were especially meaningful considering my thoughts yesterday on suffering. Also, this was written by Paul, a man who at one time persecuted the early church for their belief in Jesus Christ. Once he had his encounter with Jesus after His Resurrection, Paul found himself persecuted by the very people he worked with. And he was willing to undergo those abuses as he knew there was more than this life. Having a true connection with Jesus changes everything.

I Found God today in another reminder that He cares for us through our suffering.

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Redemption Through Suffering

Tonight in my Bible class, we finished studying the book of Job. The verse for our prayer and contemplation was Job 42:2, “I know that you can do all things, and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted.” As I meditated on these words, my thoughts went immediately to my father. I know that God can cure him of the dementia he is struggling with. I know God can stop his suffering instantly by taking him home. At the same time, I know that God allows all things through His Divine Will and purpose. Our life here on earth is temporary and God’s ultimate goal for us is to bring us to Heaven where we can live in His peace and loving presence forever. All of the things that happen in our lives have the potential of bringing us closer to God. But, like Job, our part is not to lose hope or faith, but to pray and seek God even more. Job didn’t hide his emotions, but he did maintain his dialogue with God. There is no good answer as to why we and those we love suffer. But, if we can trust that God is taking care of all things, there is redemption in the end.

I Found God today being reminded that we can participate in redemption through suffering.

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Joy For Jacob

Today was my son Jacob’s birthday. At Mass this morning, the first reading was from Jeremiah 31:7-9. It started,
“Thus says the LORD:
Shout with joy for Jacob”
I poked my sister and we chuckled. A few minutes later, my mom caught the connection as well and poked me. We chuckled too. I thought, I do shout for joy for Jacob every day.

I Found God today being joyful for my son.

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Close Family

Yesterday my mom wanted to take a walk as the weather was mild. I wanted to get out somewhere other than around the housing complex. Then I remembered my son and his family moved into a house that is directly across the street from a beautiful “Reflection Pond” owned by the neighboring church. We went over to my son’s place and picked up my granddaughter who walked around the pond with us. The ducks in the pond followed us around for a while, probably hoping for a handout. My granddaughter said she loved ducks and nature. On one side of the pond was the sign from the church saying the pond was a place to find peace. My granddaughter said she always feels at peace when she is walking outside. When we returned to their house, we sat out on the porch for a while. At one point I realized at the end of the row of the chairs was my granddaughter, next to her was her mother, I was next in line, and my mom was at the end. There were 4 generations represented.

Today we celebrated my son’s’ birthdays. We had many family members over for food, fun, and lots of laughter. When I moved so far away from my son and his family, I never dreamed that we would be all together again to enjoy planned birthday parties, or spontaneous walks outside. It is such a blessing having both my boys and family so close.

I Found God today in the blessing of close family.